Now What?

So what do we do now? We can't talk to our coordinator for another 3 1/2 hours. We remain guarded with our feelings. Not wanting to get too attached for fear that we are going to get some information that will not be good and we will have to make a decision whether to proceed or not. But we feel awful thinking that there is something wrong and that this child may not end up being ours. It's not that we are looking for the perfect child but we feel we know what we can handle at this stage in our lives. When filling out the applications the only requests we made were that our child be a girl, that is healthy and normally developing. This is ultimately in God's hands so we have to trust that he will guide us through the process of bringing home the child he has chosen for us. Is she that child? Did the agency make a mistake and forward info on the wrong child or is this just another test of our faith and our patience. At this point we just don't know what to think. We pray that there is a good explanation behind the delay in referring her and we will try to be patient while we wait for a return phone call from our coordinator.
We both return to work and try to go about our business without showing what we are feeling. Which is not easy for me. Everyone at work is anxiously awaiting their first look at "Olivia". We are anxiously awaiting our coordinator's return phone call so that we can get the facts behind the delay in referring this baby girl. At about 3 pm our coordinator called me at work to explain the delay. I am prepared for the worst.